“My bounty is as boundless as the sea,
My love as deep; the more I give to thee,
The more I have, for both are infinite.”
― William Shakespeare,
In one month I leave India.
In this place.
Over the past two years, an important truth has been revealed to me.
Love is boundless. Endless. Infinite.
Like the sea.
I conceptually believed it, but I hadn’t felt this truth in my bones until recently.
It is here in this land that I have come to know this truth.
It has been a painful journey at times, yet the amount of love that pours into my heart from all that I experience and take in and generate is miraculous.
Just when I think I will be crushed…
Just when I think it will all implode on me…
Just when I feel that I cannot bear one more minute…
I suddenly feel the freedom. The energy. The flow.
And I realize…attachments, judgements, possessiveness, jealousy are all lies.
I’ve cried rivers of tears into this endless ocean, only to find more of myself. To feel more of myself.
To feel into this vastness. To feel the possibilities of where this love can go. And grow.
I’m swimming in this love now.
Sometimes the tears (of joy, sorrow, anguish, relief) flow forcefully into this vast ocean and I feel the pressure weighing on me.
But when I allow myself to relax into it, let go, surrender…I feel the sweetness against my skin. I feel surrounded in love. I feel the support of the entire cosmos and I merge with it all.
I am it.
Into the abyss I go…